The Twins

Have pity, show no pity.
Those eyes that send such shivers
Into my brain and spine: oh let them
Flame like the ancient city
Swallowed up by the sulphurous rivers
When men let angels fret them.

Yea. Let the south wind blow,
And the Turkish banner advance,
And the word go out: No quarter.
But I shall hod thee so.
While the boys and maidens dance
About the shambles of slaughter.

I know thee who thou art,
The inmost fiend that curlest
Thy vampire tounge about
Earth's corybantic heart,
Hell's warrior that whirlest
The darts of horror and doubt.

Thou knowest me who I am
The inmost soul and saviour
Of man; what hieroglyph
Of the dragon and the lamb
Shall thou and I engrave here
On Time's inscandescable cliff.

Look, in the plished granite,
Black as thy cartouche is with sins,
I read the searing sentence
That blasts the eyes that scan it,
Hoor and Set be twins.
A fico for repentance.

Ay, O Son of my mother
That snarled and clawed in her womb
As now we rave in our rapture,
I know thee, I love thee, brother,
Incestuous males that consumes
The light and the life that we capture.

Starve thou the soul of the world,
Brother, as I the body,
Shall we not glut our lust
On these wretches whom fate hath hurled
To a hell of Jesus and shoddy,
Dung and ethics and dust?

Thou as I art fate.
Coe then, conquer and kiss me,
Come, what hinders? Believe me :
This is the thought we await.
The mark is fair; can you miss me?

See, how subtly I writhe,
Strange runes and unknown sigils
I trace in the trance that thrills us.
Death, how lithe, how blithe
Are these male incestuous vigils,
Ah, this is the spasm that kills us.

Wherefore I solemnly affirm
This twofold Oneness at the term.
Asar on Asi did beget
Horus twin brother unto Set.
Now Set and Horus kiss, to call
The Soul of the Unnatural
Forth from the dusk ; then nature slain
Lets the Beyond be born again.

This weird is of the tongue of Khem,
The Conjuration used of them.
Whoso shall speak it, let him die,
His bowels rotting inwardly,
Save he uncover and caress
The God that lighteth his liesse.


(Aleister Crowley)

The Hermit

At last an end of all I hoped and feared!
Muttered the hermit through his elfin beard.

Then what art thou? the evil whisper whirred.
I doubt me soerly if the hermit heard.

To all God's questions never a word he said,
But simply shook his venerable head.

God sent all plagues; he laughed and heeded not,
Till people certified him insane.

But somehow all his fellow lunatics
Began to imitate his silly ticks.

And stranger still, their prospects so enlarged
That one by one the patients were discharged.

God asked him by what right he interfered;
He only laughed and into his elfin beard.

When God revealed Himself to mortal prayer
He gave a fatal opening to Voltaire.

Our Hermit had dispensed with Sinai's thunder,
But on the other hand he made no blunder;

He knew no doubt that any axiom
Would furnish bricks to build some donkeydom.

But all who urged that hermit to confess
Caught the infection of his happiness.

I would it were my fate to dree his weird;
I think that I will grow an elfin beard.


(Aleister Crowley)

Spiced With Sorrow

Ware, nor of good nor ill, what aim hath act?
Without its climax, death, what savour hath
Life? an impeccable machine, exact
He paces an inane and pointless path
To glut brute appetites, his sole content
How tedious were he fit to comprehend
Himself!  More,  this our noble element
Of fire in nature, love in spirit, unkenned
Life hath no spring, no axle, and no end.

His body a bloody ruby radiant
With noble passion, sun souled Lucifer
Swept through the dawn colossal, swift aslant
On Eden's imbecile perimeter.
He blessed nonentity with every curse
And spiced with sorrow the dull soul of sense,
Breathed life into the sterile universe,
With Love and Knowledge drove out innocence
The Key of Joy is disobedience.


(Aleister Crowley)

Mystic Rose

Out of the seething cauldron of my woes,
Where sweets and salt and bitterness I flung;
Where charmed music gathered from my tongue,
And where I chained strange archipelagoes
Of fallen stars; where fiery passion flows
A curious bitumen; where among
The glowing medley moved the tune unsung
Of perfect love: thence grew the Mystic Rose.

Its myriad petals of divided light;
Its leaves of the most radiant emerald;
Its heart of fire like rubies. At the sight,
I lifted up my heart to God and called:
How shall I pluck this dream of my desire?
And lo! there shaped itself the Cross of Fire.


(Aleister Crowley)

Independence

Come to my arms is it eve? is it morn?
Is Apollo awake? Is Diana reborn?
Are the streams in full song? Do the woods whisper hush
Is it the nightingale? Is it the thrush?
Is it the smile of the autumn, the blush
Of the spring? Is the world full of peace or alarms?
Come to my arms, Laylah, come to my arms.

Come to my arms, though the hurricane blow.
Thunder and summer, or winter and snow,
It is one to us, one, while our spirits are curled
In the crimson caress: we are fond, we are furled
Like lilies away from the war of the world.
Are there spells beyond ours? Are there alien charms?
Come to my arms, Laylah, come to my arms.

Come to my arms! is it life? is it death?
Is not all immortality born of your breath?
Are not heaven and hell but as handmaids of yours
Who are all that enflames, who are all that allures,
Who are all that destroys, who are all that endures?
I am yours, do I care if it heals me or harms?
Come to my arms, Laylah, come to my arms.


(Aleister Crowley)

Logos

Out of the night forth flamed a star  mine own.
Now seventy light years nearer as I urge,
Constant my heart through the abyss unknown,
Its glory my sole guide while space surge,
About me. Seventy light years, As I near
that gate of light that men call death, its cold
Pale gleam begins to pulse, a throbbing sphere,
Systole and diastole of eager gold,
New life immortal, warmth of passion bleed,
Till night's black velvet burn to crimson. Hark,
It is thy voice, Thy word, the secret seed
Of rapture that admonishes the dark.
Swift by necessity most righteous drawn,
Hermes, authentic augur of the dawn.


(Aleister Crowley)

Of Love to Leah

Come, my darling, let us dance
To the moon that beckons us.
To dissolve our love in trance,
Heedless of the hideous
Heat and hate of Sirius.
Shun his baneful brilliance.

Let us dance beneath the palm,
Moving in the moonlight, frond
Wooing frond above the calm
Of the ocean diamond,
Sparkling to the sky beyond,
The enchantment of our psalm.

Let us dance, my mirror of
Perfect passion won to peace,
Let us dance, my treasure trove,
On the marble terraces
Carven in pallid embroideries
For the vestal veil of love.

Heaven awakes to encompass us,
Hell awakes its jubilance
In our hearts mysterious
Marriage of the azure expanse,
With the scarlet brilliance
Of the moon with sirius.

Velvet swatches our lissome limbs,
Languid lapped by sky and sea,
Soul through sense and spirit swims,
Through the pregnant porphyry
Dome of lapis lazuli,
Heart of silence, hush our hymns.

Come my darling; let us dance
Through the golden galaxies,
Rhythmic swell of circumstance,
Beaming passion’s argosies,
Ecstasy entwined with ease,
Terrene joy transcending trance.

Thou my scarlet concubine,
Draining heart’s blood to the lees,
To empurple those divine
Lips with living luxuries,
Life importunate to appease,
Drought insatiable of wine.


Tunis in the tremendous trance, 
Rests from day’s incestuous
Traffic with the radiance
Of her sire, and over us,
Gleams the intoxicating glance
Of the moon and sirius.

Take the ardour of my impearled
Essence that my shoulders seek,
To intensify the curled
Candour of the eyes oblique,
Eyes that see the seraphic sleek,
Lust bewitch the wanton world.

Affric sands ensorcel us,
Affric seas and skies entrance,
Velvet lewd and luminous,
Night surveys our soul askance,
Come my love, and let us dance,
To the moon and sirius.


(Aleister Crowley)

The Atheist

Nor thou, Habib, nor I are glad, 
when rosy limbs and sweat entwine;
But rapture drowns the sense and self,
the wine the drawer of the wine.

And Him that planted first the grape
o podex, in thy vault there dwells
A charm to make the member mad,
And shake the marrow of the spine.

O member, in thy stubborn strength
a power avails on podex sense
To boil the blood in breast and brain;
shudder the nerves incarnadine.

From me thou drawest pearly drink
and in its pouring’s both are drunk.
The Iman drives forth the drunken man
from out the marble prayer shrine.

Blue Mushtari strove with red Mirrikh
which should be master of the night
But where is Mushtari, where Mirrikh
when in the sky the sun doth shine?

Now El Qahar to Hazif gives
the worship unto poets due
But songs are nought and Music all
what poet music may define?

Allah's the atheist he owns
no Allah. Sneer, thou dullard churl,
The Sufi worships not, but drinks,
being himself the all-divine.

Come, my Habib, the roses blush,
the waters gleam, the bulbul sings
To pierce thy podex El Quahar's
urgent and and imminent design.


(Aleister Crowley)

The Titanic

Forth flashed the serpent streak of steel, 
consummate crown of man's device;
Down crashed upon an immobile
And brainless barrier of ice.
Courage.
The grey gods shoot a laughing lip:
Let not faith founder with the ship.

We reel before the blows of fate;
Our stout souls stagger at the shock.
Oh, there is something ultimate
Fixed faster than the living rock.
Courage.
Catastrophe beyond belief
Harden our hearts to fear and grief.

The gods upon the Titans shower
Their high intolerable scorn;
But no god knoweth in what hour
A new Prometheus may be born.
Courage.
Man to his doom goes driving down;
A crown of thorns is still a crown.   

No power of nature shall withstand
At last the spirit of mankind:
It is not built upon the sand;
It is not wastrel to the wind.
Courage.
Disaster and destruction tend
To taller triumph in the end.


(Aleister Crowley)

The Tent

Only the stars endome the lonely camp, 
Only the desert leagues encompass it;
Waterless wastes, a wilderness of wit,
Embattled cold, imagination's cramp.
Now were the desolation fain to stamp
The congealed spirit of man into the pit,
Save that, unquenchable because unlit,
The Love of God burns steady, like a Lamp.

It burns, beyond the sands, beyond the stars.
It burns, beyond the bands, beyond the bars.
And so the expanse of mystery, veil by veil,
Burns inward, plume on plume still folding over
The dissolved heart of the amazed lover
The angel wings upon the Holy Grail.


(Aleister Crowley)

The Pentagram

In the Years of the Primal Course,
In the dawn of terrestrial birth,
Man mastered the mammoth and horse,
And Man was the Lord of the Earth.
He made him a hollow skin,
From the heart of a holy tree,
He compassed the earth therein,
and Man was the Lord of the Sea,
He controlled the vigour of steam,
He harnessed the lightning for hire,
He drove the celestial team,
And man was the Lord of the fire,
Deep mouthed their thrones deep seated,
The choirs of the aeons declare,
The last of the demons defeated,
For Man is the Lord of the Air,
Arise, O Man, in thy strength,
The kingdom is thine to inherit,
Till the high gods witness at length,
That Man is the Lord of his spirit.


(Aleister Crowley)

Optimist

Kill off mankind
And give the Earth a chance
Nature might find
In her inheritance
The seedlings of a race
Less infinitely base.


(Aleister Crowley)

The Mantra Yoga

How should I seek to make a song for thee
When all my music is to moan thy name?
That long sad monotone the same the same
Matching the mute insatiable sea
That throbs with life's bewitching agony,
Too long to measure and too fierce to tame
An hurtful joy, a fascinating shame
Is this great ache that grips the heart of me.

Even as a cancer, so this passion gnaws
Away my soul, and will not ease its jaws
Till I am dead. Then let me die Who knows
But that this corpse committed to the earth
May be the occasion of some happier birth?
Spring's earliest snowdrop? Summer's latest rose?

Thou knowest what asp hath fixed its lethal tooth
In the white breast that trembled like a flower
At thy name whispered. thou hast marked how hour
By hour its poison hath dissolved my youth,            
Half skilled to agonise, half skilled to soothe
This passion ineluctable, this power
Slave to its single end, to storm the tower
That holdeth thee, who art authentic truth.

O golden hawk, O lidless eye, Behold
How the grey creeps upon the shuddering gold,
Still I will strive, That thou mayst sweep
Swift on the dead from thine all seeing steep
And the unutterable word by spoken.


(Aleister Crowley)

The Interpreter

Mother of Light, and the Gods,
Mother of Music, awake,
Silence and speech are at odds;
Heaven and Hell are at stake.
By the Rose and the Cross-I conjure;
I constrain by the Snake and the Sword;
I am he that is sworn to endure,
Bring us the word of the Lord.

By the brood of the Bysses of Brightening,
Whose God was my sire;
By the Lord of the Flame and Lightning,
The King of the Spirits of Fire;
By the Lord of the Waves and the Waters,
The King of the hosts of the Sea,
The fairest of all was mother to me.

By the Lord of the Winds and the Breezes,
The king of the Spirits of Air,
In whose bosom the infinite ease,
Is that cradled me there,
By the Lord of the Fields and the Mountains,
The King of the Spirits of Earth,
That nurtured my life at his fountains,
From the hour of my birth.
                                                           
By the Wand and the Cup, I conjure;
By the Dagger and Disk I constrain;
I am he that is sworn to endure;
Make thy music again;
I am Lord of the Star and the Seal;
I am Lord of the Snake and the Sword;
Reveal us the riddle, reveal,
Bring us the word of the Lord.

As the flame of the sun,
As the roar of the sea,
As the storm of the air,
For a bane, for a snare,
For a lure, for a light,
For a kiss, for a rod,
For a scourge, for a sword,
Bring us thy burden of bliss
Bring us the word of the Lord.


(Aleister Crowley)

The Hawk and the Babe

I am that hawk of gold
Proud in adamantine poise
On the pillars of turquoise,
See, beyond the starry fold,
Where a darkling orb is rolled.

There, beneath a grove of yew,
Plays a babe. Should I despise
Such foam of gold, and eyes
Burning beryline, so blue
That the sun seems peeping through?

Did I swoop, were Heaven amazed?
With my beak I strike but once;
Out there leap a million suns.
Through the universe that blazed
Screams theit light, and death is dazed.

In my womb the babe may leap;
Seek him not within my eye,
Nor demand thou of me why
I should plunge from crystal steep
Like a plummet to the deep.

See yon solitary star
What a world of blackness wraps
Round it! Unimagined gaps.
Let it be. Content thy car
With the voyage to things that are.

Nor, an thou perchance behold
How I plunge and batten on
Earth's exentrate carrion,
Deem turquoise match midden mould
Or deny the Hawk of Gold.


(Aleister Crowley)

The Four Winds

The South wind said to the palms: 
My lovers sing me psalms;
But are they as warm as those
That Laylah's lover knows.

The North wind said to the firs:
I have my worshippers;
But are they as keen as hers.

The East wind said to the cedars:
My friends are no seceders;
But is their faith to me
As firm as his faith must be.

The West wind said to the yews:
My children are pure as dews;
But what of her lover's muse?

So to spite the summer weather
The four winds howled together.
But a great Voice from above
Cried: What do you know of love?

Do you think all nature worth
The littlest life upon earth?
I made the germ and the ant,
The tiger and elephant.

In the least of these, there is more
Than your elemental war.
And the lovers whom ye slight
Are precious in my sight.

Peace to your mischief brewing,
I love to watch their wooing.
Of all this Laylah heard
Never a word.

She lay beneath the trees
With her lover at her knees.
He sang of God above
And of love.

She lay at his side
Well satisfied.
And at set of sun
They were one.

Before they slept her pure smile curled;
God bless all lovers in the World
And so say I the self-same word;
Nor doubt God heard.


(Aleister Crowley)

Prologue to Rodin in Rime

Nor I can give, nor you can take; endures
The simple truth of me that is yours.
Is not the music mingled with the form
When all the heavens break in blind black storm?
Are we not veiled as Gods, and cruel as they,
Smiting our brilliance on the shuddering clay?
Silence and darkness cover us, confirm
Our splendour to its unappointed term:
For all the men homunculi that dance
Around us shudder at our brilliance.
These puppets perish in the good grand glare,
Our sworded sunlight in the boundless air,
These bats need cloisters; these tame birds a cage;
How should they know the Masters of the Age?
Or understand when the archangels cry
Adoring us Ellên kat' asterh ei?


(Aleister Crowley)

Long Odds

How many million galaxies there are
Who knows? and each has countless stars in it,
And each rolls through eternities afar
Beneath the threshold of the Infinite.

How is it that will all that space to roam
I should have found this mote that spins and leaps
In what unutterable sunlight, foam
Of what unfathomable starry deeps.

Who knows? And how this thousand million souls
And half a thousand million souls of earth
That swarm, all bound for unimagined goals,
All pioneers of death enrolled at birth.

How were they swept away before my sight,
That I might stand upon the single prick
Of infinite space and time as infinite,
Who knows? Yet here I stand, climacteric.

Having found you. Was it by fall of chance?
Then what a stake against what odds I have won,
Was it determined in God's ordinance?
Then wondrous love and pity for His son.

Or was it part of an eternal law?
Then how ineffably beneficent,
Each thought excites an ecstasy of awe,
A rapture rending the mind's firmament.

Infinity yet you and I have met.
Eternity yet hand in hand we run.
All odds that I should lose you or forget,
But, soul and spirit and body, we are one.

Is this the child of chance, or law, or will?
Is None or all or one to thank for this?
It will not matter if thanks giving fill
The endless empyrean with a kiss.


(Aleister Crowley)

La Gitana

Your hair was full of roses
in the dewfall as we danced,
The sorceress enchanting
and the paladin entranced,
In the starlight as we wove
us in a web of silk and steel,
Immemorial as the marble
in the halls of Boabdil,
In the pleasuance of the roses
with the fountains and the yews,
Where the snowy Sierra soothed
us with the breezes and the dews.
In the starlight as we trembled
from a laugh to a caress,
And the God came warm upon
us in our pagan allegresse.
Was the Baile de la Bona
too seductive?
Did you feel through
the silence and the softness
all the tension of the steel?
For your hair was full of roses,
and my flesh was full of thorns,
And the midnight came upon us
worth a million crazy morns.
Ah! my Gipsy, my Gitana,
my Saliya  were you fain,
For the dance to turn to earnest?
O the sunny land of Spain.
My Gitana, my Saliya,
more delicious than a dove,
With your hair aflame with roses
and your lips alight with love.
Shall I see you,
shall I kiss you once again?
I wander far,
From the sunny land of summer
to the icy Polar Star.
I shall find you,
I shall have you.
I am coming back again,
From the filth and fog to seek you
in the sunny land of Spain.
I shall find you, my Gitana,
my Saliya as of old,
With your hair aflame with roses
and your body gay with gold.
I shall find you, I shall have you,
in the summer and the south,
With our passion in your body
and our love upon your mouth,
With our wonder and our worship
be the world aflame anew.
My Gitana, my Saliya,
I am coming back to you.


(Aleister Crowley)

Eighteen

So it is eighteen years, 
Helena, since we met!
A season so endears,
Nor you nor I forget
The fresh young faces that once clove
In that most fiery dawn of love.

We wandered to and fro,
Who knew not how to woo,
Those eighteen years ago,
Sweetheart, when I and you
Exchanged high vows in heaven's sight
That scarce survived a summer's night.

What scourge smote from the stars
What madness from the moon?
That night we broke the bars
Was quintessential June,
When you and I beneath the trees
Bartered our bold virginities.

Eighteen years, months, or hours?
Time is a tyrant's toy!
Eternal are the flowers!
We are but girl and boy
Yet since love leapt as swift tonight
As it had never left the light!

For fiercer from the South
Still flames your cruel hair,
And Trojan Helen's mouth
Still not so ripe and rare
As Helena's nor love nor youth
So leaps with lust or thrills with truth.

Helena, still we hold
Flesh firmer, still we mix
Black hair with hair as gold.
Life has but served to fix
Our hearts; love lingers on the tongue,
And who loves once is always young.

The stars are still the same;
The changeful moon endures;
Come without fear or shame,
And draw my mouth to yours!
Youth fails, however flesh be fain;
Manhood and womanhood attain.

Life is a string of pearls,
And you the first I strung.
You left first flower of girls!
Life lyric on my tongue,
An indefatigable dance,
An inexhaustible romance.

Blush of love's dawn, bright bud
That bloomed for my delight,
First blossom of my blood,
Burn in that blood tonight!
Helena, Helena, fiercely fresh,
Your flesh flies fervent to my flesh.

What sage can dare impugn
Man's immortality?
Our godhead swims, immune
From death and destiny.
Ignored the bubble in the flow
Of love eighteen short years ago!

Time I embrace all time
As my arm rings your waist.
Space you surpass, sublime,
As, taking me, we taste
Omnipotence, sense slaying sense,
Soul slaying soul, omniscience.


(Aleister Crowley)

Dumb

Gabriel whispered in mine ear
His archangelic poesie.
How can I write?  I only hear
the sobbing murmur of the sea.

Raphael breathed and bade me pass
His rapt evangel to mankind;
I cannot even match, alas!
The ululation of the wind.

The gross grey gods like gargoyles spit
On every poet's holy head;
No mustard-seed of truth or wit
In those curst furrows, quick or dead!

A tithe of what I know would cleanse
The leprosy of earth; and I
My limits are like other men's.
I must live dumb, and dumb must die!


(Aleister Crowley)

Colophon

Lamp of living loveliness, 
Maid miraculously male,
Rapture of thine own excess
Blushing through the velvet veil
Where the olive cheeks aglow
Shadow-soften into snow,
Breasts like Bacchanals afloat
Under the proudly phallic throat!
Be thou to my pilgrimage
Light, and laughter sweet and sage,
Till the darkling day expire
Of my life in thy caress,
Thou my frenzy and my fire,
Lamp of living loveliness!

Thou the ruler of the rod
That beneath thy clasp extends
To the galaxies of God
From the gulph where ocean ends,
Cave of dragon, ruby rose,
Heart of hell, garden-close,
Hyacinth petal sweet to smell,
Split-hoof of the glad gazelle,
Be thou mine as I am thine,
As the vine's ensigns entwine
At the sacring of the sun,
Thou the even and I the odd
Being and becoming one
On the abacus of God!

Thou the sacred snake that rears
Death, a jewelled crest across
The enchantment of the years,
All my love that is my loss.
Life and death, two and one,
Hate and love, moon and sun,
Light and darkness, never swerve
From the norm, note the nerve,
Name the name, exceed the excess
Of thy lamp of loveliness,
Living snake of lazy love,
Ithyphallic that uprears
Its Palladium above
The enchantment of the years!


(Aleister Crowley)

A Birthday

Full moon tonight; and six and twenty years
Since my full moon first broke from angel spheres!
A year of infinite love unwearying
No circling seasons, but perennial spring!
A year of triumph trampling through defeat,
The first made holy and the last made sweet
By this same love; a year of wealth and woe,
Joy, poverty, health, sickness all one glow
In the pure light that filled our firmament
Of supreme silence and unbarred extent,
Wherein one sacrament was ours, one Lord,
One resurrection, one recurrent chord,
One incarnation, one descending dove,
All these being one, and that one being Love!

You sent your spirit into tunes; my soul
Yearned in a thousand melodies to enscroll
Its happiness: I left no flower unplucked
That might have graced your garland. I induct
Tragedy, comedy, farce, fable, song,
Each longing a little, each a little long,
But each aspiring only to express
Your excellence and my unworthiness    
Nay! but my worthiness, since I was sense
And spirit too of that same excellence.

So thus we solved the earth's revolving riddle
I could write verse, and you could play the fiddle,
While, as for love, the sun went through the signs,
And not a star but told him how love twines
A wreath for every decanate, degree,
Minute and second, linked eternally
In chains of flowers that never fading are,
Each one as sempiternal as a star.

Let me go back to your last birthday.
I was already your one man of men
Appointed to complete you, and fulfil
From everlasting the eternal will.
We lay within the flood of crimson light
In my own balcony that August night,
And conjuring the aright and the averse
Created yet another universe.

We worked together, dance and rite and spell
Arousing heaven and constraining hell.
We lived together; every hour of rest
Was honied from your tiger lily breast.
We oh what lingering doubt or fear betrayed
My life to fate! we parted. Was I afraid?
I was afraid, afraid to live my love,
Afraid you played the serpent, I the dove,
Afraid of what I know not. I am glad          
Of all the shame and wretchedness I had,
Since those six weeks have taught me not to doubt you,
And also that I cannot live without you.

Then I came back to you; black treasons rear
Their heads, blind hates, deaf agonies of fear,
Cruelty, cowardice, falsehood, broken pledges,
The temple soiled with senseless sacrileges,
Sickness and poverty, a thousand evils,
Concerted malice of a million devils;
You never swerved; your high pooped galleon
Went marvellously, majestically on
Full sailed, while every other braver bark
Drove on the rocks, or foundered in the dark.

Then Easter, and the days of all delight!
God's sun lit noontide and his moon midnight,
While above all, true centre of our world,
True source of light, our great love passion pearled
Gave all its life and splendour to the sea
Above whose tides stood our stability.

Then sudden and fierce, no monitory moan,
Smote the mad mischief of the great cyclone.
How far below us all its fury rolled!
How vainly sulphur tries to tarnish gold!
We lived together: all its malice meant
Nothing but freedom of a continent!

It was the forest and the river that knew
The fact that one and one do not make two.  
We worked, we walked, we slept, we were at ease,
We cried, we quarrelled; all the rocks and trees
For twenty miles could tell how lovers played,
And we could count a kiss for every glade.
Worry, starvation, illness and distress?
Each moment was a mine of happiness.

Then we grew tired of being country mice,
Came up to Paris, lived our sacrifice
There, giving holy berries to the moon,
July's thanksgiving for the joys of June.

And you are gone away and how shall I
Make August sing the raptures of July?
And you are gone away what evil star
Makes you so competent and popular?
How have I raised this harpy hag of Hell's
Malice   that you are wanted somewhere else?
I wish you were like me a man forbid,
Banned, outcast, nice society well rid
Of the pair of us then who would interfere
With us? my darling, you would now be here!

But no! we must fight on, win through, succeed,
Earn the grudged praise that never comes to meed,
Lash dogs to kennel, trample snakes, put bit
In the mule mouths that have such need of it,
Until the world there's so much to forgive in
Becomes a little possible to live in.

God alone knows if battle or surrender
Be the true courage; either has its splendour.  
But since we chose the first, God aid the right,
And damn me if I fail you in the fight!
God join again the ways that lie apart,
And bless the love of loyal heart to heart!
God keep us every hour in every thought,
And bring the vessel of our love to port!

These are my birthday wishes, dawn's at hand,
And you're an exile in a lonely land.
But what were magic if it could not give
My thought enough vitality to live?
Do not then dream this night has been a loss!
All night I have hung, a god, upon the cross;
All night I have offered incense at the shrine;
All night you have been unutterably mine,
Miner in the memory of the first wild hour
When my rough grasp tore the unwilling flower
From your closed garden, mine in every mood,
In every tense, in every attitude,
In every possibility, still mine
While the sun's pomp and pageant, sign to sign,
Stately proceeded, mine not only so
In the glamour of memory and austral glow
Of ardour, but by image of my brow
Stronger than sense, you are even here and now
Miner, utterly mine, my sister and my wife,
Mother of my children, mistress of my life!

O wild swan winging through the morning mist!
The thousand thousand kisses that we kissed,      
The infinite device our love devised
If by some chance its truth might be surprised,
Are these all past? Are these to come?  Believe me,
There is no parting; they can never leave me.
I have built you up into my heart and brain
So fast that we can never part again.
Why should I sing you these fantastic psalms
When all the time I have you in my arms?
Why?  'tis the murmur of our love that swells
Earth's dithyrambs and ocean's oracles.

But this is dawn; my soul shall make its nest
Where your sighs swing from rapture into rest
Love's thurible, your tiger lily breast.


(Aleister Crowley)

At Sea

As night hath stars, more rare than ships
In ocean, faint from pole to pole,
So all the wonder of her lips
Hints her in navigable soul.

Such lights she gives as guide my bark;
But I am swallowed in the swell
Of her heart's ocean, sagely dark,
That holds my heaven and holds my hell.

In her I live, a mote minute
Dancing a moment in the sun:
In her I die, a sterile shoot
Of nightshade in oblivion.

In her my elf dissolves, a grain
Of salt cast careless in the sea;
My passion purifies my pain
To peace past personality.

Love of my life, God grant the years
Confirm the chrism rose to rood,
Anointing loves, asperging tears
In sanctifying solitude.

Man is so infinitely small
In all these stars, determinate.
Maker and moulder of them all,
Man is so infinitely great.


(Aleister Crowley)

Adela

Jupiter's foursquare blaze of gold and blue
Rides on the moon, a lilac conch of pearl,
As if the dread god, charioted anew
Came conquering, his amazing disk awhirl
To war down all the stars. I see him through
The hair of this mine own Italian girl, Adela
That bends her face on mine in the gondola.

There is scarce a breath of wind on the lagoon.
Life is absorbed in its beatitude,
A meditative mage beneath the moon
Ah! should we come, a delicate interlude,
To Campo Santo that, this night of June,
Heals for a while the immitigable feud? Adela
Your breath ruffles my soul in the gondola.   

Through maze on maze of silent waterways,
Guarded by lightless sentinel palaces,
We glide; the soft plash of the oar, that sways
Our life, like love does, laps no softer seas
Swoon in the bosom of Pacific bays!
We are in tune with the infinite ecstasies, Adela
Sway with me, sway with me in the gondola.

They hold us in, these tangled sepulchres
That guard such ghostly life. They tower above
Our passage like the cliffs of death. There stirs
No angel from the pinnacles thereof.
All broods, all breeds. But immanent as Hers
That reigns is this most silent crown of love, Adela
That broods on me, and is I, in the gondola.

They twist, they twine, these white and black canals,
Now stark with lamplight, now a reach of Styx.
Even as out love raging wild animals
suddenly hoisted on the crucifix
To radiate seraphic coronals,
Flowers, flowers O let our light and darkness mix, Adela
Goddess and beast with me in the gondola.

Come! though your hair be a cascade of fire,
Your lips twin snakes, your tongue the lightning flash,
Your teeth God's grip on life, your face His lyre,      
Your eyes His stars come, let our Venus lash
Our bodies with the whips of Her desire.
Your bed's the world, your body the world-ash, Adela
Shall I give the word to the man of the gondola?


(Aleister Crowley)

Ad Lucium

The Lampsacene is girt with golden dress;
His courts gleam ever with forbidden light;
I only bring no gift to him to-night,
Being the mockery of his rod's distress.
While satyrs woo, and fauns, and nymphs give ear,
I burn unslacked, mu Lucius is unkind,
He dare not guess, I dare not speak my mind,
Nor feed upon his lips, nor call him dear,
Nor may I clasp him, lissome and divine,
Nor suck our passion from his eager verge,
Nor pleasure in his quick embraces prove;
I faint for love, come aid me sparkling wine,
That my unquenchable desire may urge
In Lucius' fiery heart responsive love.

O fervent and sweet to my bosom
Past woman, I'll clasp thee and cling
Till the buds of desire break to blossom
And my kisses surprise thee and sting;
Till my hand and my mouth are united
In caresses that shake thee and smite,
While the stars hide their lustre affrighted
In measureless night.

I will neither delay nor dissemble
But utter my love in thine ear
Though my voice and my countenance tremble
With a passion past pity and fear;
I will speak from my heart till thou listen
With the soft sound of wings of a dove,
Till thine eyes anser back till they glisten
O Lucius, love!

I will touch thee but once with a finger,
But thy vitals shall shudder and smart,
And the smile through thy sorrow shall linger,
And the touch shall pierce through to thine heart;
Thy lips a denial shall fashion,
Thou shalt tremble and fear to confess,
Till thou suddenly break into passion
With yes, love, and yes.

I will kiss thee and fondle and woo thee
And mingle my lips into thine
That shall tingle and thrill through and through thee
As the draught of the flame of a wine;
I will drink of the fount of our pleasure
Licking round and about and above
Till its streams pour me out their full measure,
O Lucius, love!

Thou shalt clasp me and clamber above me
And press me with eager desire,
Thou shalt kiss me and clip me and love me
With a love beyond infinite fire,
Thou shalt pierce to the portals of passion
And satiate thy longing and lust
In the fearless Athenian fashion,
A rose amid dust.

We will taste all delights and caresses
And know all the secrets of joy,
From the love look that chastity blesses
To the lusts that deceive and destroy;
We will live in the light of sweet glances,
By day and by night we will move
To the music of manifold dances,
O Lucius, love!


(Aleister Crowley)

My Weariness Will

Snow that fallest from heaven
bear me aloft on thy wings,
To the domes of the star girdled seven,
The abode of ineffable things,
Quintessence of joy and of strength, that,
Abolishing future and past,
Make’s the present an infinite length,
My soul all one with the vast,
The lone, the unnameable god,
That is ice of his measureless cold,
Without being or form or abode,
Without motion or matter, the fold,
Where the shepherded universe sleeps,
With nor sense nor delusion nor dream,
No spirit that wantons or weeps,
No thought in its silence supreme,
I sit, and am utterly still,
In mine eyes is my fathomless lust,
Ablaze to annihilate will,
To crumble my being to dust,
To calcine the dust to an ash,
To burn up the ash to an air,
To abolish the air with a flash of the final,
The fulminant flare,
All this I have done,

and dissolved the primordial germ of my thought,
I have rolled myself up,

and revolved the wheel of my being to naught,
Is there even the memory left?

that I was, that I am?  It is lost,
As I utter the word,

I am cleft by the last swift spear of the frost,
Snow, I am nothing at last; I sit, and am utterly still,
They are perished, the phantoms, and past,
They were born of my weariness will,
When I craved, craved being and form,
When the consciousness cloud was a mist,
Precursor of stupor and storm,

when I and my shadow had kissed,
And brought into life all the shapes

that confused the clear space with their marks,
Vain spectres whose vapour escapes,

a whirlwind of ruinous sparks,
No substance have any of these;

I have dreamed them in sickness of lust,
Delirium born of disease ah,

whence was the master, the must,
Imposed on the all? is it true then,

that something in me Is subject to fate?
Are there two, after all, that can be?
I have brought all that is to an end,
For myself am sufficient and sole,
Do I trick myself now? 

shall I rend once again this homologous whole?
I have stripped every garment from space;

I have strangled the secret of time,
All being is fled from my face,

with motion's inhibited rime,
Stiller and stiller I sit, till even infinity fades,
'Tis an idol 'tis weakness of wit that breeds,

in inanity, shades,
Yet the fullness of naught I become,

the deepest and steadiest naught,
Contains in its nature the sum of the functions

of being and thought,
Still as I sit, and destroy all possible trace of the past,
All germ of the future,

nor joy nor knowledge alive at the last,
It is vain, for the silence is dowered with a nature,

the seed of a name,
Necessity, fearfully flowered

with the blossom of possible aim,
I am necessity?

scry necessity mother of fate,
And fate determines me the I,

and I have the will to create,
Vast is the sphere,

but it turns on itself like the pettiest star,
And I am the looby that learns that all things equally are,
Inscrutable nothing, the gods,

the cosmos of fire and of mist,
Suns, atoms and the clouds ineluctably dare to exist,
I have made the voyage of thought,

the voyage of vision, I swam,
To the heart of the ocean of naught

from the source of the spring of I am,
I know myself wholly the brother

alike of the all and the one,
I know that all things are each other,

that their sum and their substance is none,
But the knowledge itself can excel,

its fullness hath broken its bond,
All's truth, and all's falsehood as well,

and what of the region beyond?
So, still though I sit, as for ever,

I stab to the heart of my spine,
I destroy the last seed of endeavour

to seal up my soul in the shrine,
Of silence, eternity, peace;

I abandon the here and the now,
I cease from the effort to cease;

I absolve the dead I from its vow,
I am wholly content to be dust,

whether that be a mote or a star,
To live and to love and to lust,

acknowledge what seem for what are,
Not to care what I am, if I be,

whence I came, whither go, how I thrive,
If my spirit be bound or be free, save as nature contrive,
What I am, that I am, 'tis enough.

I am part of a glorious game,
Am I cast for madness or love?

I am cast to esteem them the same,
Am I only a dream in the sleep of some butterfly?

phantom of fright,
Conceived, who knows how, 
or how deep,
in the measureless womb of the night?
I imagine impossible thought,
metaphysical voids that beget Ideas,
Intangible wrought to things less conceivable
yet It may be little I reckon but,
assume the existence of earth,
Am I born to be hanged by the neck?
a curse from the hour of my birth?
Am I born to abolish man's guilt?

his horrible heritage awe?
Or a seed in his wantoness spilt by a jester?

I care not a straw,
For I understand do what thou wilt,
And I understand that for me,
These words are the whole of the Law.

(Aleister Crowley)

Poet Take My Hand

I to the open road, 
You to the hunchbacked street
Which of us two
Shall the earlier rue
That day we chanced to meet.

I with a heart that's sound,
You with sick fancies of pain
Which of us two
Would the earlier rue
If we chanced to meet again?

I jingle homely lore,
While you rhyme is with kiss
Which of us two
Will the earlier rue
The love of the Hoylake Miss?

Not I the first to go,
Nor I the first to deceive
Which of us two
Shall the the earliest rue
Our garden of make believe?  

You were a Chinese god,
I an offering fair,
As we entered the
Garden of Allah.
To sing our holy prayer.

Entered with hearts bowed low,
Yet I heard a voice that cried:
For he is the god,
The Sacrifice,
You are the crucified.

It was all make believe,
A foolish game of play,
Our garden of Allah
A drawing room,
Our Chinese god of clay.

Strings of bruises for pearls,
Tears for forget me not’s,
And a deadly pain
Of the sickening shame
Watching the fading spots.

As quickly they faded,
The heart of me faded as well,
Until nothing is left of my garden,
But a soul sunk to hell.    
Poet prend ton lute Je disparaire,

No more together we'll enter the
Enchanted garden of make believe,
Nor my sad soul listen while thine deceive.
No more you'll be the God of Sacrifice,
Nor I the crucified.

Ah, Garden of Allah how bitter sweet
Thy fruit. Why breakest thou the heart?
Why spoilest thou the soul with notes
From thy golden lute?
Lo! our garden a common room.

Our Chinese god burnt clay, and
The singing of verses a funeral hymn
That awakes with awakening day.
Twas all such a meaningless play,
Poet prend ton lute Je disparaitre.

Poet, take my hand,

We'll walk still a little way,
I’ll not desert thee at the close of day,
I, too, must pray.
A beggar asking alms of passers-by
Does not refuse a drink to one who's dry.

That once by him did lie.
Poet, come close before I leave for aye
Take thou my hand, we'll walk still
A little way.                          
One garment covered both to keep us warm,

What harmed the one,
Wasn’t not the other's harm?
Close clasped, one single form.
Was it not meant of aye?
Poet, take thou my hand we'll still,
Walk a little way.


(Aleister Crowley)

The Wizard Way

Velvet soft the night star glowed,
Over the untrodden road,
Through the giant glades of yew,
Where its ray fell light as dew,
Lighting up the shimmering veil,
Maiden pure and aery frail,
That the spiders wove to hide,
Blushes of the sylvan bride,
Earth, that trembled with delight,
At the male caress of Night,
Velvet soft the wizard trod,
To the Sabbath of his God,
With his naked feet he made,
Starry blossoms in the glade,
Softly, softly, as he went,
To the sombre sacrament,
Stealthy stepping to the tryst,
In his gown of amethyst,
Earlier yet his soul had come,
To the Hill of Martyrdom,
Where the charred and crooked stake,
Like a black envenomed snake,
By the hangman's hands is thrust,
Through the wet and writhing dust,
Never black and never dried,
Heart's blood of a suicide,
He had plucked the hazel rod,
From the rude and goatish god,
Even as the curved moon's waning ray,
Stolen from the King of Day,
He had learnt the elvish sign,
Given the Token of the Nine,
Once to rave, and once to revel,
Once to bow before the devil,
Once to swing the thurible,
Once to kiss the goat of hell,
Once to dance the aspen spring,
Once to croak, and once to sing,
Once to oil the savoury thighs,
Of the witch with sea-green eyes,
With the unguents magical,
Oh the honey and the gall,
Of that black enchanter's lips,
As he croons to the eclipse,
Mingling that most puissant spell,
Of the giant gods of hell,
With the four ingredients,
Of the evil elements,
Ambergris from golden spar,
Musk of ox from Mongol jar,
Civet from a box of jade,
Mixed with fat of many a maid,
Slain by the inchauntments cold,
Of the witches wild and old,
He had crucified a toad,
In the basilisk abode,
Muttering the runes averse,
Mad with many a mocking curse,
He had traced the serpent sigil,
In his ghastly virgin vigil,
Sursum cor! the elfin hill,
Where the wind blows deadly chill,
From the world that wails beneath,
Death's black throat and lipless teeth,
There he had stood his bosom bare,
Tracing Life upon the air,
With the crook and with the flail,
Lashing forward on the gale,
Till its blade that wavereth,
Like the flickering of death,
Sank before his subtle fence,
To the starless sea of sense,
Now at last the man is come,
Haply to his halidom,
Surely as he waves his rod,
In a circle on the sod,
Springs the emerald chaste and clean,
From the duller paler green,
Surely in the circle millions,
Of immaculate pavilions,
Flash upon the trembling turf,
Like the sea stars in the surf,
Millions of bejewelled tents,
For the warrior sacraments,
Vaster, vaster, vaster, vaster,
Grows the stature of the master,
All the ringed encampment vies,
With the infinite galaxies,
In the midst a cubic stone,
With the Devil set thereon,
Hath a lamb's virginal throat,
Hath the body of a stoat,
Hath the buttocks of a goat,
Hath the sanguine face and rod,
Of a goddess and a god,
Spell by spell and pace by pace,
Mystic flashes swing and trace,
Velvet soft the sigil stepped,
By the silver-starred adept,
Back and front, and to and fro,
Soul and body sway and flow,
In vertiginous caresses,
To imponderable recesses,
Till at last the spell is woven,
And the faery veil is cloven,
That was sequence, space and stress,
Of the soul sick consciousness,
Give thy body to the beasts,
Give thy spirit to the priests,
Break in twain the hazel rod,
On the virgin lips of God,
Tear the rosy cross asunder,
Shatter the black bolt of thunder,
Suck the swart ensanguine kiss,
Of the resolute abyss,
Wonder weft the wizard heard,
This intolerable word,
Smote the blasting hazel rod,
On the scarlet lips of God,
Trampled cross and rosy core,
Brake the thunder tool of Thor,
Meek and holy acolyte,
Of the priestly hells of spite,
Sleek and shameless catamite,
Of the beasts that prowl the night,
Like a star that streams from heaven,
Through the virgin airs light riven,
From the lift there shot and fell,
An admirable miracle,
Carved minute and clean, a key,
Of purest lapis-lazuli,
More blue than the blind sky that aches,
Wreathed with the stars, her torturing snakes,
For the dead god's kiss that never wakes,
Shot with golden specks of fire,
Like a virgin with desire,
Look, the levers! Fern frail fronds,
Of fantastic diamonds,
Glimmering with ethereal azure,
In each exquisite embrasure,
On the shaft the letters laced,
As if dryads lunar chaste,
With the satyrs were embraced,
Spelled the secret of the key,
Sic pervenias, and he went his wizard way,
Inweaving dreams of things beyond believing,
When he will, the weary world,
Of the senses closely curled,
Like a serpent round his heart,
Shakes herself and stands apart,
So the heart's blood flames, expanding,
Strenuous, urgent, and commanding,
And the key unlocks the door,
Where his love lives evermore,
She is of the faery blood,
All smaragdine flows its flood,
Glowing in the amber sky,
To ensorcelled porphyry,
She hath eyes of glittering flake,
Like a cold grey water snake,
She hath naked breasts of amber,
Jetting wine in her bedchamber,
Whereof whoso stoops and drinks,
Rees the riddle of the Sphinx,
She hath naked limbs of amber,
Where upon her children clamber,
She hath five navels rosy-red,
From the five wounds of God that bled,
Each wound that mothered her still bleeding,
And on that blood her babes are feeding,
Oh! like a rose-winged pelican,
She hath bred blessed babes to Pan,
Oh! like a lion-hued nightingale,
She hath torn her breast on thorns to avail,
The barren rose tree to renew,
Her life with that disastrous dew,
Building the rose o' the world alight,
With music out of the pale moonlight,
O She is like the river of blood,
That broke from the lips of the god,
When he saw the sacred mother smile,
On the ibis that flew up the foam of Nile,
Bearing the limbs unblessed, unborn,
That the lurking beast of Nile had torn,
So for the world is weary, I,
These dreadful souls of sense lay by,
I sacrifice these impure shoon,
To the cold ray of the waning moon,
I take the forked hazel staff,
And the rose of no terrene graff,
And the lamp of no olive oil,
With heart's blood that alone may boil,
With naked breast and feet unshod,
I follow the wizard way to God,
Wherever he leads my foot shall follow,
Over the height, into the hollow,
Up to the caves of pure cold breath,
Down to the deeps of foul hot death,
Across the seas, through the fires,
Past the palace of desires,
Where he will, whether he will or no,
If I go, I care not whither I go,
For in me is the taint of the faery blood,
Fast, fast its emerald flood,
Leaps within me, violent rude,
Like a bestial faun's beatitude,
In me the faery blood runs hard,
My sires were a druid, a devil, a bard,
A beast, a wizard, a snake and a satyr,
For as my mother said, what does it matter?
She was a fay, pure of the faery,
Queen Morgan's daughter by an aery,
Demon that came to Orkney once,
To pay the Beetle his orisons,
So, it is I that writhe with the twitch,
Of the faery blood, and the wizard itch,
To attain a matter one may not utter,
Rather than sink in the greasy splutter,
Of Britons munching their bread and butter,
Ailing boys and coarse grained girls,
Grown to sloppy women and brutal churls,
So, I am off with staff in hand,
To the endless light of the nameless land,
Darkness spreads its sombre streams,
Blotting out the elfin dreams,
I might haply be afraid,
Were it not the feather maid,
Leads me softly by the hand,
Whispers me to understand,
Now when through the world of weeping,
Light at last starrily creeping,
Steals upon my babe new sight,
Light, O light that is not light,
On my mouth the lips of her,
Like a stone on my sepulchre,
Seal my speech with ecstasy,
Till a babe is born of me,
That is silent more than I,
For its inarticulate cry,
Hushes as its mouth is pressed,
To the pearl, her honey breast,
While its breath divinely ripple,
The rose petals of her nipples,
And the jetted milk he laps,
From the soft delicious paps,
Sweeter than the bee sweet showers,
In the chalice of the flowers,
More intoxicating than,
All the purple grapes of Pan,
Ah! my proper lips are stilled,
Only, all the world is filled,
With the echo, that drips over,
Like the honey from the clover,
Passion, penitence, and pain,
Seek their mother's womb again,
And are born the triple treasure,
Peace, purity and pleasure,
Hush, my child, and come aloft,
where the stars are velvet soft,

(Aleister Crowley)

The World of The Dark Shaman (future edit)

What seemed like a lifetime he lived on the street,
He sold his soul to eat.
Why has our Lord forsaken him?
He did no wrong,
The night he died,
Nobody cried,
They shared what he had,
And left him for dead,
His body to bleed,
Oh, the rats they did feed.
Who will remember his childhood?
The few good times he had?
Today a new guy on the street,
He sold his soul to eat.


(Stewart Hall)


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